A few months ago when I was still employed, I would have never fathomed being bored. I was too damn busy to be bored. Fast forward to now. It is summertime!! Yeah baby.... I have been looking forward to summertime since my illustrious exit from the workforce. Summertime is pretty awesome. First of all, no school for Kaleb equals no alarm clock! It has been so many years since the alarm clock had no place in my life. We stay up late, we sleep late. It's awesome. No complaints there! I also don't have to make a 30 minute round trip excursion to Kaleb's school twice a day. Yippee! We can do what we want, when we want to do it. Sounds awesome right? Well it is. It is awesome except for the fact that we now have 7 days a week to fill up time!!! Do you know how much time that is?
We have filled up some time going to Worlds of Fun and Oceans of Fun quite a few times. We have the passes so it really doesn't cost much to go. However, I can only take so much of said places. Once a week is about all I can handle. It is too damn hot now to go to WOF and OOF with a 2 year old and an 8 year old by yourself is not as much fun as you might think. Lilah wants to hang in the kids pool area and Kaleb gets super bored there. He loves the Wave Pool. Lilah HATES the wave pool. She has to wear a OOF issued lifejacket that looks like it is choking the hell out of her so who could blame her. If I was a smart mom I would get her her own well fitted neoprene life jacket. Right? It's on my list. And to top it off I loathe wearing a bathing suit! Who doesn't? Shut up you skinny bitches! I don't care if every other woman there has saddle bags or a gut or thunder thighs. It doesn't make it any better!
We signed up for Kids Bowl Free too. That is a pretty sweet deal. Two free games a day if you want for your kids. I signed me and Josh up too for $21 and we get to bowl 2 games a day every day as well. There is nothing to dislike about going bowling. Especially since the bowling alley is 2 minutes from home! Everyone has a good time and the only thing to argue about is who is the better bowler!
Between the obstacles of having a 2 year old (napping, potty training, general overall craziness), the cost of most things and the obnoxious heat wave we have been having lately we haven't been doing much. And I am sofaking bored! Seriously. I find myself on most days wondering from room to room looking for something to do. Sure I could scrub the bathtub or clean the basement. But no. You have to be in the mood to do those things and I ain't in it! Summertime has made me lazy. A lazy that I have never known myself to be before. It is a strange feeling and one I am not comfortable with. I can't get interested in anything. I love crafts but can't get in the right mind to sit down and create something fabulous. I love to read but am too lazy to go to the library to find a good book and too cheap to go buy the Fifty Shades series which is next on my want to read list. I am currently #88 in the hold queue at the library for the first book. At that rate I should be reading it sometime in the next 3 years! I can't even stand being on the internet or watching TV or playing a game on my phone for too long. Maybe I have ADHD or something. Or maybe having nothing to do is so foreign to me that I don't know how to handle it. I have guilt. Isn't their something I NEED to be doing?
With all of that said I bet I have some working mothers about ready to shoot me right now! Ladies.....I know. I have shot many imaginary arrows/bullets through the hearts/eyes of many a stay at home mom in my day. How dare they complain about anything? Lucky bitches! But I found that their is validity to their compliants of insanity and boredom and unfullfillment. They are real feelings that I feel all the time! But in my heart I know that the grass isn't greener on the other side of the fence. Spending all of this time with my kids and being home all of this time has taught me one very important thing. Being bored is better than being overloaded any day! I am getting precious time with my kids that I will never get back. I am learning things about them and seeing parts of their personalities I might have never known. When my time comes to go back to the world of the busy, hard working do it all mom who never has a moment to herself I will hopefully fall back into that world gracefully and not lose too much of my mind in the process. Until then I need to relax and see that being lazy can be awesome and not something to be guilty about.
